First of all I want to thank this organization for the daily support, interesting articles and all the education and information you share on subjects including stalking, workplace bullying, narcissistic and psychological abuse and all the unfortunate (mostly) silent torture victims of abuse have endured. I have to say it is social media accounts like yours, that keep me going. It's not always easy but it definitely has helped me a lot. Most importantly, I no longer feel like I am alone and going through this sick torture feeling like nobody would understand me. But thanks to you, I feel heard and understood.
So after seeing your posts on Twitter to 'share your story', today I have decided to do so, especially after a tweet I posted last Friday, which seemed to have upset the perpetrators and the attacks got worse from then.
Basically it started years ago, I was in my early 20's when I started to feel followed everywhere. To work and back, when out with friends, who soon were turned against me and became part of the harassment. When I tried to confront them about it, they would literally disappear and never talk to me again. Strange behaviour in my then workplace did not go unnoticed either and I soon started to feel I was observed there too. The stalking and harassment got worse when I started to not answer personal questions to my then boss who would ask, what are your plans this weekend? Because when I did tell him and I would be at that place I'd feel observed and they would make it very obvious that I was being watched. It was then when I thought to myself, something is not right here and someone is trying to make me paranoid or crazy. I ended up not trusting anyone. Little did I know that that was just the beginning of a nightmare I would never get out of.
I was unfairly dismissed from that workplace after I noticed they started panicking, when really all I did was not engage in personal conversations. Which made me realise that yes, they must have gotten into something they are now afraid of being called out on. So they planned daily attacks, like gossiping, not involving me in conversation, finding missing things from my desk. And a lot of provocations from his wife mainly. Until one day when the wife realised that nothing she did or said made me react in any negative way because I held strong and remained professional in my work, she started yelling at me for nothing, accusing me of having an attitude (for ignoring petty nonsense?) and she did that the minute she heard her husband walk in the office. Yes, she planned it out. He soon walked in giving me bad looks and she walked out acting like she was upset. I was still trying to figure out what the hell just happened and why she did that? However, it was after that I realised that they all played a part. They all acted as though I was some kind of a problem and each one went in one by one to the bosses office (after the wife spoke to him first of course) He then of course called me in and started insulting me on the personal (on purpose, to provoke a reaction from me) I was there for about 7 years and at that moment it really hurt. I felt so betrayed and hurt that a person (mostly him) whom I never had any problems with, suddenly acted like a total stranger. Not only that, insulted and provoked me until I had no choice but to walk away. They soon turned it that I just quit and after i received a letter from them just a Few days later that I owed them money because I decided to leave without notice, when in reality I was bullied out with no choice but to walk out, even if I did not want to. I was inexperienced, hurt, confused and scared. I didn't know what to do. I felt alone.
After receiving that letter I decided to get advice from a lawyer and contacted the lawyer who had once assisted a family member and she was very helpful. She immediately told me that it was an unfair dismissal and that they tried to get out of it by making it look like I just left and to make it worse are asking me to pay them? I just literally wanted to move on with my life but this needed to be addressed and sorted first, professionally with no trouble.
Unfortunately she couldn't help me for much longer as she was soon approached by the bullies and made her refer me to another lawyer who later I realised was a friend of theirs and was of course helping them instead. I had remembered that they knew my computer password so I wonder what they did in the meantime.....(Fabricating lies and false evidence?) I remember telling him this and he only replied saying, yes, could be...
To cut the story a bit shorter, the harassment, stalking, monitoring, smear campaigns, gossip, went on for many years, from workplace to workplace and from one social circle to another, as well as, the neighbourhood. And never getting out of this vicious circle. I remember one time in one of the places I worked after that horrible experience, a coworker verbally threatened me telling me, "be careful what you do or they will arrest you" followed by, "be careful what you say or they'll kill you" I got concerned but I had reached a point in my life that I had no one to turn to because anyone I tried to get help from, either was already informed about me or turned against me. Including certain authorities who are supposed to be protecting citizens from harassments and not become part of it.
Noise pollution, people taking photos and videos as I walked to and back from work did not stop till today. The street theatres never stopped either and the phone hacking and excessive monitoring (even inside my home) never stopped either.
Today I am 40 years old, still single, unmarried with no children. Because what should have been the best years of my life turned out to be a real life nightmare. Having healthy relationships and friendships, continuing my studies, having a family of my own, could never happen for me because they controlled everything and everyone, making sure that I could never live a normal life. I was looked at as a crazy person, a liar, an attention seeker, who had some what obsession on someone or some people (projection) to scare people away from me and to never be believed. I struggled a lot on my own, but it has also made me stronger in character. Last early summer, I had finally met a guy who I felt was the right one for me, we got along so well and our characters really matched. He was such a nice person and I was so happy and finally in love but unfortunately it didn't last long, as it ended unexpectedly. I was shattered but still hoped we would get back together again, but what was worse was, just weeks later he passed away.
This destroyed me. When I finally felt that I could finally start living again, that I finally met someone I could trust, someone I felt comfortable with, someone who didnt judge me and liked me for me, ended tragically. He was a lovely person, with a big heart and a sensitive soul, and who's life was taken away too quickly.
What a relief it must have been for the perpetrators and their enablers that I was alone again right?
So as I said after I posted a tweet last Friday, they seemed to have lost it again, and the noise pollution and harassments got worse and making it very obvious, cars honking, sirens, cars with certain number pates they would tease me with (why I don't know but you cant understand Sick twisted evil corrupt minds like theirs). To the point that today they even made an old man say out loud as I was walking in the street, "they will kill and burry you" I mean last Friday's tweet really created some kind of a stir it seems. Oh what have they done?! I mean, why take a random tweet personally? Guilty much?
After years of educating myself on this type of abuse, I came to understand that they do it to escape accountability for their wrongdoings. They are malignant narcissists. I had also read that it is very difficult to stop such evil abuse and mental torture. They literally are out to assassinate your character and destroy your soul. However, if my story can inspire or better help at least just one person who is going through the same kind of psychological torture, gangstalking, smear campaigns, false accusations, lies, constant monitoring....I wish to tell them, to stay strong, to rise above these sick bastards and life ruiners, who the only reason They created all of this, was because of their own insecurities, fear and Guilt. I never wanted any trouble. I just wanted to be left alone but they didnt.
They did this on their own. I had No part in this charade whatsoever.
So whoever feels discouraged, please stay strong, there is support, there is help, and most importantly you are not alone in this. Never let anyone bully you into silence and never let them make you feel like you are unworthy.
Thank you for your time, and keep up the good work, you are making victims stronger.